Fast Blinking Hello Kitty

For Emma, forever ago

The air felt like childhood against my bare skin, as if the wind was going to blow back the times, ever so lightly. Even now I still play pretend, you know, every white lie, each censored sentence, too familiar counterfeit smiles. But for now this, only this, is it. This is the world falling apart and coming back together. We stood there in your driveway like the distracted kids we wished we still were, popsicles forgotten in our hands, desire dripping down our forearms, orange and sweet, summer has left indelible stains on my skin. we watched the sun fall down and felt sad, a little.


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I’ve been wanting to contact you
but I can’t figure out what to say

because now it’s 1pm on September 1st
and I’m spinning around in the pink lingerie
you bought me for our anniversary
and I’m spinning so fast,
looking down,
watching the pink ruffles twist and turn
I’m so dizzy and I can’t stop laughing,
waiting for my eyes to focus
and when they do you’re not there
so I keep spinning.
I keep spinning.

because now it’s night time in our small town
and I’m up sitting crossed legged on my perfectly made bed
and I’m tapping my thumbs on my thighs
to the beat of all of the songs we used to sing.

because now it’s me driving across that bridge
to sit in my parent’s driveway
the same way we did when we were 16,
arms crossed in a bed of ants,
laughing into the night
at the same time as the singing crickets.

because now it’s my birthday
I make a wish
and it’s you.

I’ve been wanting to contact you
but I can’t figure out what to say

she said,
“tell me. tell me what you think you’d say.”
I laugh while pulling a lighter
out of the pocket of my yellow sundress
and whisper,
I’d say:

hey.
it’s me
and it’s always been you.

so I keep spinning and I keep spinning//d.a.h (via whisperingbones) +

My grandfather always said that living is like licking honey off a thorn.

Louis Adamic  (via thatkindofwoman) +
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hirxeth:

“I care too much, but it never works. Like Now-I’m trying to be here, I’m trying to do Things. But it doesn’t work, I can’t find Anything, so maybe that’s what makes me crazy.”
Palo Alto (2014) Dir. Gia Coppola

hirxeth:

“I care too much, but it never works. Like Now-I’m trying to be here, I’m trying to do Things. But it doesn’t work, I can’t find Anything, so maybe that’s what makes me crazy.”

Palo Alto (2014) Dir. Gia Coppola

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littlelotte-xo:

curlicuecal:

Games with English: insert the word “only” anywhere into the above sentence and consider how the placement changes meaning.

Omg this is cool

littlelotte-xo:

curlicuecal:

Games with English: insert the word “only” anywhere into the above sentence and consider how the placement changes meaning.

Omg this is cool

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I understand. That’s the trouble. I understand. I’ll understand all the time. All day and all night. Especially all night. I’ll understand. You don’t have to worry about that.

Ernest Hemingway (via katelouisepowell) +
cschoonover:

My photos from Iceland are up:
cschoonover.com/iceland

cschoonover:

My photos from Iceland are up:

cschoonover.com/iceland

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